Happy Yorkshire Day & Thank You Lovely Ladies

It's 1st August, which means only one thing, it's Yorkshire Day! WooHoo!
I'd been thinking about doing some kind of random acts of kindness with Kiki, but hadn't got around to it. This last couple of weeks I've felt really low and suicidal, so whilst trying to pull myself out my horrible all-encompassing mood, I thought we'd give it a go today. 

As it's Yorkshire Day I decided we would hand out some white roses. I had some small gift bags left over from crafting, I wrote a message on card saying 'Happy Yorkshire Day, love Kiki x', to put in the bag. I also added the hashtag #RandomActsOfKindness and my twitter name.

We went into Leeds and bought a big bunch of white roses. I asked the seller not to wrap them and uncut the ties so I could separate them. 

We then separated them out and added the bag and notes.

Handing them out should be easy, right?

Actually no, it was seriously hard work. The amount of people who ignored us, ran away, or dumped them after we left was unbelievable.

We did get some lovely reactions though, which was the point! 
Little Lady had fun too.

Our little random acts of kindness trip, wasn't easy, it was quite stressful, but I'd like to think we made a few people smile. 

Thank you to all those lovely people who did stop and talk to us, especially the great girls (and guy) who made a fuss of Kiki telling her she had made their day.



Reasons to be Cheerful

The reins have been passed to Becky over at Lakes Single Mum for July.
Reasons to be Cheerful
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This week's Reasons to be Cheerful:
  • As I mentioned in Wobbles Wednesday and last week's Reason To Be Cheerful, this new therapy group I've started going to is bringing up some difficult stuff to deal with. I expected it to happen, and thought I could handle it, but last week something that could have been a throw away comment turned into me ruminating and having lots of negative thoughts and suicidal idealation. So why on Earth would I put that as a reason to be cheerful?! Well I'm still here!
    • I received two compliments this week, and instead of feeling foolish and embarrassed, I accepted them with a 'Thank you'. Someone told me my child was the politest little girl they'd met, which I was very happy about. Although she can be a diva, as all toddlers can I suspect, it was nice for someone to acknowledge her manners, not just say the usual how beautiful she is, it meant more to me. The other was someone from my Therapy group, who told me I always looked well put together. I did think to myself well at least she only sees me once a week, but I just thanked her. 
  • I had a free meal this week too! Tweet4aTable is back. It's a pop up style restaurant showcasing food available at Co-op. I only found out the day by accident really, so didn't tweet as they only do 2 or 3 days in each city, and they ask for tweets one day for next. However, they hadn't filled their tables for the day, so they tweeted me to ask if I fancied a table. Went with my best friend & Kiki and had a laugh, the food was really good too, you can see the full menu here.

So that's my week, over to you, what have you been up to?

    Wobbles Wednesday

    I've had a very mixed week. The end of last week and the weekend was full of depression and suicidal ideation. Daddy took Kiki out on Saturday to the farm, they had fun and I got a break. As my home town was hosting Le Grand Depart I laid on the sofa and watched it. I had a million and one things to do, but none of it mattered. I had a day of doing nothing. Exactly what I needed, it really did help.

    I also started meditating daily again. My experiences of mindfulness before starting this new therapy group were fairly negative, but I'm using Andrew Johnson's apps again. I'm learning new skills and ways of being mindful but I still find his guided stuff really helps focus me. I think it's the vocals, I find it difficult to be mindful if it's quiet and I'm doing nothing, so it's helpful to have his voice to return my thoughts and attention to.
    I also accepted two compliments this week, not by my usual embarrassed, fumbling, self depreciating manner, I just said thank you. Progress, I guess.
    Food wise this week has been fairly rubbish. I've tried to make good choices but given how I was feeling that didn't always work. And I drank too much...
    I tell myself next week will be better, but I suspect it won't. 
    I have walked a bit this week, but nothing compared to the exercise I should be getting.
    Over to you, did you have a good week?
    What did you do to look after you mental and physical health?

    Wobbles Wednesday